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 ## College Is Not That Terrible Now That I'm Not That Crazy??
 
+ * Previously: http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2024/05/should-i-finish-my-bachelors-degree/
+ * SF State is still the communist dystopia I remember from a dozen years ago, but it doesn't hurt this time, because I have a sense of humor about it now
+ * Communist dystopia: propaganda about how beneficial and humanitarian it is, but authoritarian command economies are not human
+ * People talk about math courses by number
+ * We submit our homework through the online course portal; other than that, everything is the same
 
+### My Tragic Backstory
 
+ * went to UCSC out of high school, intended to major in philosophy
+ * nervous beakdown triggered by "Intro to Feminisms" 
+ * I believed in school==education; "my mandate to the University" mentioned in my Diary, "are you trying to sabotage my education?" when mom asked if maybe it was better if I lived at home
+ * TODO: read my "prodigal son" letter to recapture the spirit
+ * Heald
+ * differential equations debacle
+ * DVC
+ * SFSU
 
+### Doing It Right This Time: "Real Analysis II" and "Probability Models"
 
-[Queer Literatures and Media]
+ * Picking up where I left off: my last class but SFSU was "Real Analysis I" with Prof. A in Spring 2013, this is "Real Analysis II" with Prof. A in Fall 2024
+ * a memory from 2013: he asked what a sequence was, I said, "A function from the naturals to the reals", he asked how I knew that, I said, "I know how to read"
+ * First day, I "marked my territory" by showing up and writing the multidimensional chain rule on the board
+ * Prof. "A" does office hours in a conference room, which is great
+ * The syllabus is a lie: you might expect that "Several Variables" (https://math.sfsu.edu/courses/470) would cover Stokes, but we actually covered series, series of functions, and metric spaces
+ * intimate class: like 7 people
+ * 470/770 split: I was the only undergraduate in "Math 470"
+ * free Palestine and Rashid Khalidi
+ * time for the Stone-Weirstrass
+ * Prof. "A" impressed when a student mentioned ZFC; I think this is "knowing how to read" territory and should not be impressive
+ * 82% midterm
+ * botching a compactness proof on the final
+ * didn't quite have the same rapport in office hours; lanauge and culture might have made a difference
+ * quiz resubmit for half-credit thing
+ * LLM use and citing it
 
-[clicking through anti-harrassment training is obviously OK]
+
+### "Queer Literatures and Media"
+
+ * Getting a C- is the funniest possible outcome
+ * 
+ 
+### Cynicism and Sanity
+
+ * Grief that I didn't know how to do this when I was young; I could have majored in math (even if I'm actually a philosopher) and taken the Putnam and started my career in 2010
+ * The TA recommeneded I look up the solution manual online 
+ * clicking through anti-harrassment training is obviously OK
+ * tutoring center punch card
+
+the fiction of "grade level"
+
+re studying for life vs. studying for school, people also exercise outside of sports, but I _did_ train harder when I was competing—you could say, that was different because this is a matter of the soul
+
+Geoffrey Hinton